oh so she's cheatin on yah huh? back with her ex-bf? how do i cope? my anger flashing like an unwelcome memory from my tortured past. how can you forgive a person who has the nerve to lie to you.
a wishy washy mix of feelings, tossed in a blender with a dash of deceit & a bucket of anger. Still blaming myself i didnt followed my gut and look what happened. u have no idea how all these feels. how would you know what I feel, when I know your heart isnt broken enough to make u think twice? all your words, untruthful, grasping hollow in themselves and merely and echo. my mind is spinning, bleeding in anguish, I felt hopeless, twisted at the throat, dying under my skin, hanging by my fingernails as i clinched my fist, tired, mad, mad & mad. all these r pushing me over the edge.
i know damn well, a lie cant be undone. some are cursed with the gift of being misleading, the bending of truth, unrecognizable to the naked eye. But to those slightly jaded, they are as obvious as red lipstick on an old chic.
u telling me u miss'd me & still love me, & i am way better person than him.< --- this right here r flat out lies. this will destroy a whole person. i jst cant let u do that to me. i am better & good. i really dont care anymore what u think or do, for all i knw its another drama to fit on ur new picture. im jst unmasking what u really r in my head. slowly theres really nothing left there. u r right abt i will hate u one day. yeah!
We all want the same thing right? To be in a loving relationship, and eventually have a family with that person. Well what a start that is. I have been on the recieving end of the whole cheating circus, i still cant believe i allow this to get through me again.
i know people prey on our goodness thats why we often hide our true self. i jst hate those whose pretends to be a goody-goody, that it make it seems like they r god's gift to everyone. i dont mean to hate, but u just gotta stop. Or at least dont be so fakey nice, its just so old. Hey youre cute on the outside.. you just gotta work on the worms inside now.
Everyone you truly love is worth being faithful to. No if's and but's.
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"i felt like the boat is leaving the port, & im still holdin' on to the shore."
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(WOW! WAT A WASTE. DONT EVER GET UR ASS PLAYED ON, THAT GOES TO EACH & EVERYONE REGARDLESS OF GENDER OR SITUATION. SOME PEOPLE R JST OUT TO GET U. ITS LIKE THEY CAN SMELL IT.)
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You learn fast in the 3d worlds the key thing is will the same things happen over and over again or will the cycle be broken. There will be many more in the future that betray you online in virtual worlds it always happens when you least expect it.
yeah i knw, its sad huh? i dunnoo y im still hurting, il get over this soon. its messing up everything i do. thanks again for the comment.
oh good one jordy, maybe u tell ur people to stop telling me wats going on, u knw damn well who. thanks for commenting tho, loving the use of the F word. nah i cant say it its not me. say hi to her for me.
mlm
You really shouldn't believe what everyone tells you. I don't know what this person has been saying, but I can guarantee that it's not true because I don't talk to them, or anyone else, that much anymore.
But hey, I know you're not gonna believe me Draw. I was trying to save you from some unnecessary pain and suffering, but if that's what you want, then go for it.
hmmm... thanks! but im not hurting anymore tho - i was jst shock at first then all that. but im back to normal now. all that with raven was a huge mistake. never, never , never again. better off alone - i jst cant take people putting up lies, acting all sweet wen ur around but everytime u turn ur back all they do is talk smackss abt u.
i want to clear all the fuzz - all this is not worth talking abt. im still trying to forget all that - bad memories ew! damn.
Yawn... lol
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