oh so she's cheatin on yah huh? back with her ex-bf? how do i cope? my anger flashing like an unwelcome memory from my tortured past. how can you forgive a person who has the nerve to lie to you.
a wishy washy mix of feelings, tossed in a blender with a dash of deceit & a bucket of anger. Still blaming myself i didnt followed my gut and look what happened. u have no idea how all these feels. how would you know what I feel, when I know your heart isnt broken enough to make u think twice? all your words, untruthful, grasping hollow in themselves and merely and echo. my mind is spinning, bleeding in anguish, I felt hopeless, twisted at the throat, dying under my skin, hanging by my fingernails as i clinched my fist, tired, mad, mad & mad. all these r pushing me over the edge.
i know damn well, a lie cant be undone. some are cursed with the gift of being misleading, the bending of truth, unrecognizable to the naked eye. But to those slightly jaded, they are as obvious as red lipstick on an old chic.
u telling me u miss'd me & still love me, & i am way better person than him.< --- this right here r flat out lies. this will destroy a whole person. i jst cant let u do that to me. i am better & good. i really dont care anymore what u think or do, for all i knw its another drama to fit on ur new picture. im jst unmasking what u really r in my head. slowly theres really nothing left there. u r right abt i will hate u one day. yeah!
We all want the same thing right? To be in a loving relationship, and eventually have a family with that person. Well what a start that is. I have been on the recieving end of the whole cheating circus, i still cant believe i allow this to get through me again.
i know people prey on our goodness thats why we often hide our true self. i jst hate those whose pretends to be a goody-goody, that it make it seems like they r god's gift to everyone. i dont mean to hate, but u just gotta stop. Or at least dont be so fakey nice, its just so old. Hey youre cute on the outside.. you just gotta work on the worms inside now.
Everyone you truly love is worth being faithful to. No if's and but's.
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"i felt like the boat is leaving the port, & im still holdin' on to the shore."
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(WOW! WAT A WASTE. DONT EVER GET UR ASS PLAYED ON, THAT GOES TO EACH & EVERYONE REGARDLESS OF GENDER OR SITUATION. SOME PEOPLE R JST OUT TO GET U. ITS LIKE THEY CAN SMELL IT.)
